Friday, October 9, 2009

Until Death

Inside us all there hides a lie. A secret. It runs deep beyond a facade built from deception. It’s buried so deep inside the pits of the mind that it is hidden from all. It is kept hidden so well for long enough that in time we consider what truth is? It is locked away. We deceive. We lie to ourselves. The lie then becomes truth where in the mind it manifests. It taunts and beckons the truth and in time we are exposed. The ridicule and torment. The pain and suffering. The judgement. All we tried to run from now rules us. It consumes us. Suffocates us.

I lead a double life, wrapped in the comfort of my own minds making, where I have become impenetrable to hurt. I’ve deceived and manipulated, tormented and angered those around me to conform to my ideology. Success. What happens when my power crumbles? My facade is penetrated? My lie discovered... The end?

Irreparable damage, mind body and soul forever tainted by the reveal. How do we continue? The ramped paranoia that becomes daily life. Petrified to exist beyond the safety of four walls inside we crumble. We fall apart. We die.

The question is, do we continue?

How do I push beyond the hurt and devastation to exist once more? Inside I am broken. Can I continue? An echo of the end becomes a melodic failure flawed by selfishness. In death I drift. The melody carries me above and beyond. Fly free.

What is left of you?

Losing control of your desire your hope is fleeting and you can’t abstain. You fall behind. You fade. You’re a memory. Just like me...

Tell me now, where is your secret taking you?